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[This isn't the first time Wash has taken justice into his own hands, or wound up in jail for it. It is the first time he's done it for someone who's still around. Hooray for diamonds and Dr. Tank.]

[But it makes this an entirely different situation, and an awkward one. He'd maintained to Ogata that he'd done it strictly to keep Ogata from staging a repeat performance on someone else, but...well, he can't deny that revenge had been a large factor in it. Ogata had killed someone he cares about - someone he sees as under his protection.]

[And Wash hadn't exactly asked Alex's opinion on the matter before he'd hunted Ogata down and dragged him in. That particular ship may have sailed, but he's long overdue to check in.]

Hey. Are you okay?

[ He's been expecting this. Honestly, Alex wonders... He should've called himself but, so much has happened, so much, and...

He answers, of course. ]

Heeyy, Wash. Uh... I'm...you know, I'm copin'?

[Coping is better than fine, as far as Wash is concerned. Fine implies denial, because nobody is fine after that kind of experience; coping at least carries a measure of reality.]

[That said, coping still has a lot of wiggle room.]

Are you actual coping, barely hanging on coping, or quit asking about it coping?

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...Coping.

[ His voice is even, but it sounds like it's somewhere between those first two. ]

It's not like this is my first go-around, after all, you know.

[Wash will take it. It's better than being fully in the latter camp.]

Yeah, but this one was...pretty personal.

[Despite the distance involved, a sniper shot is an intensely personal way to kill someone, and that's before you get to the motive.]

[He sighs.]

If you need any help...coping, or if you just want to talk, let me know, okay?

[Part of him wants to ask Alex how he feels about Wash's role in all of this. The other part of him almost doesn't want to know - not after the damage this whole thing has done to his relationship with Sayori.]

I dunno, I was pretty sure Death turning my whole life into a frickin' deathtrap was pretty damn personal, don't you think.

[ There's a bitterness there Alex doesn't mean to let out. But it comes anyway, and he squeezes his eyes shut and curls his hands to fists, damn it- ]

...It was fast, okay, it could've been worse.

[Wash hadn't figured the inexorable force of nature, dickish as it was, to be the same as another human pulling the trigger, but his lack of experience with that form of death doesn't invalidate Alex's overabundance of experience with it.]

...good point.

Just because it could've been worse doesn't mean it wasn't bad. It's okay to be messed up over it.

[...Wash is not nearly as good at this as he would like. Hopefully it still helps, if only a little.]

I- I know, I know it's okay. And I am. ...Not okay, I mean-

[ The more he talks the more he gets twisted up, it seems. Alex takes a deep breath and tries, very hard, to compose himself. ]

I mean I'm doing my best. I... I appreciate the offer, alright? I do. But I've been... I've been getting through this. I've...had some help.

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