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...technically true.

[It still seems dull to Michael. Surely relaxation ought to come along with some sort of recreation? Play a game, watch something.]

There's a few things that can be done to us, where oblivion would be better. But not that many. You can wait a lot of stuff out, at my age.

I guess the big difference is...I dunno, I don't think of it as oblivion. It's just another part of the day.

I guess that's interesting. We really never distinguished that much between periods of time - it was more about tasks, or jobs. There's no "end of the day" for us.

[It's just one task, and then the next. There's Jeremy Bearimy, of course, but nobody really marks the end of a Bearimy with anything special.]

...We're gonna get into talking time shit again, and you know, I don't think I like thinking about that, so I'm just gonna let it pass.

[ Oh honey, you ain't gonna like this mission. ]

Yeah, that was what broke Chidi too. Eleanor found him later making "M&M Peeps chili" and yelling about nihilism to a lecture hall full of students.

[Michael sorta regrets not getting to see that. But then again, he's got a billion funny Chidi stories nobody else even remembers now, so it's probably fair.]

...The teacher guy, he did that?

[ Gossip about your friends!! Especially now that another one of them is here. ]

He seems like, the opposite of that. ...Oh, guess that's why the call it an existential crisis.

Yeeeeeah. That one was my bad.

[His and Janet's? Mostly his, let's be real]

But he did give me an existential crisis once, you know.

You? Really? ...How?

[ This is more like it. Gossip he likes! ]

I had just started taking ethics class with the others, so I wouldn't say we were friends yet. I just spent the whole time mocking him and his curriculum.

[Shrug. Michael can see, in retrospect, that it was a bit childish. He'd just been angry at having to ally with them in the first place, and angry with Eleanor for putting some dumb condition on it.]

So he just decided we should have this long talk about how if I got caught and retired, I would be functionally dead and the world would go on without me, completely uncaring, as if I'd never existed, and I would only experience oblivion. [you know, fun!] Technically, that last part isn't entirely true, I'd have been experiencing endless agony. But I'd honestly never thought about things like that before - the universe never had existed without me in it.

[so tl;dr the immortal understood the concept of mortality for a second and lost his shit]

[ Were Alex in the mood for another riveting conversation about how much his life sucked before all this, he'd put in the opinion that oblivion is endless agony, in its own sense, and he's experienced it enough to know.

But. You know. Stay on topic. ]

Never. You- you immortal suckers never thought about this kind of... Well, shit, no wonder your world's so fucked up, if that's just how all the guys running the joint operate. [ But he laughs, for a moment. ] Sounds like it kinda served you right, getting a look at it from...well, from the human perspective.

Oh, it did. Serve us all right, I'm sure.

[He's just gonna lump them all together; the angels need a kick in the ass too.]

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