[ A hard smile settles on his mouth and Alex's shoulders slump a little. This must be so hard for her to say. After everything he'd seen... This must be almost impossible. Sayori's so strong. Much...much stronger than he feels he could ever be.
He breathes out a sigh. ] I could never just do it. Just...let myself relax. If I was distracted, it- it meant something bad could happen. It meant it'd break me. And...for awhile that was...better, but then, when...I finally let my guard down...
[ A shot to the head. Alex slowly raises a hand to the almost imperceptible indent above his right eyebrow, a mark of his death and resurrection. ]
...But...it's not always like that. Right? It's not... just 'cause it happened when I didn't think it would. That doesn't...mean I can't ever just...live. Right?
[ More than anything, he wishes he could repeat Clear's easy reassurances back and have that be the end of it, but what he's asking for is reassurance. Confirmation. ]
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He breathes out a sigh. ] I could never just do it. Just...let myself relax. If I was distracted, it- it meant something bad could happen. It meant it'd break me. And...for awhile that was...better, but then, when...I finally let my guard down...
[ A shot to the head. Alex slowly raises a hand to the almost imperceptible indent above his right eyebrow, a mark of his death and resurrection. ]
...But...it's not always like that. Right? It's not... just 'cause it happened when I didn't think it would. That doesn't...mean I can't ever just...live. Right?
[ More than anything, he wishes he could repeat Clear's easy reassurances back and have that be the end of it, but what he's asking for is reassurance. Confirmation. ]